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Speaking Truth: One of my deepest desires...

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Speaking Truth: One of my deepest desires...

The legendary logo in New Buffalo, Michigan.

The legendary logo in New Buffalo, Michigan.

It is August already! How does this happen!? 

For me August is all about the beach and the sense of vacation - whether lake or ocean. We don't exactly have many of those in Colorado (land-locked state), so every time we're back in Chicago, I try to make a trip up to Michigan for a weekend. FYI - if you've never stopped at Redamak's in New Buffalo, MI, you're missing out! 

There is this happy place in me that is always activated deep down when I think of summers in Michigan. But there's an even happier place for me than any beach or cabin: Pennellwood Resort. My family and several close family friends went to Pennellwood for a week every summer for over 15 years... until it closed while I was in college. 

A photo from way, way back of the dining hall, horseshoes and shuffleboard tournaments. 

There was something absolutely magical about the Dirty Dancing-style resort in southern Michigan.

It wasn't that it appealed to me when I was a kid; it was still one of my favorite places through high school, through college... I always looked forward to going to Pennellwood. I wanted to work there in the summer one day, like the waitresses I idolized. I loved the musty old cabins and the worn wood in the dining hall entrance, and how everything smelled like cedar. I loved the sound of the shuffleboard and ping pong table. I loved kayaking on the river or hiking in the creek in the woods.

I wanted to have my wedding there, and when it closed, I didn't want to have a wedding at all anymore, because I could never have it at Pennellwood. It may sound crazy, but I love it to this day, even though the cabins have been torn down, the rec hall is gone, the dock is roped off and the pools are empty.

Now, this may sound sad or crazy to some, but one of my deepest, utmost desires is to one day re-open Pennellwood - to make it once again the magical place that it was. 

This is a deep, constant desire of mine. No matter where I am, or what I want, or who I'm with, or what I'm doing... this desire remains in the back of my mind. I kept telling myself that it was childish for a long time, and tried to push it away... but with the transformation of myself that I've gone through over the past year, I've realized that what I loved about Pennellwood is totally worth sharing. It was the sense of community, the feeling of happiness from everyone there, the shared knowledge that we all loved this magical place so damn much that we cried every year at the last night's campfire when the staff sang, "I don't really wanna go home now." Most of all, I loved the feeling of freedom found there, with friends old and new.

I want other people to feel that happiness that is brought by that little place in Michian. I want it so badly, that one day, I know it will happen. 

So this is my confession, another step in the process of manifesting a deep desire, is to say it outright to the world with emotion and faith that your words will become truth one day. I believe in my heart that this will come true, and I desire it enough that the How isn't important yet.

What is your deepest passion today? What one desire is always in your mind?

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Busy Doing What?

We're on an extended trip visiting family in Chicago. We live in Denver, and most of our family lives in or near Chicago. Usually our visits are about a week at most which leaves us really scrambling to see everyone and do everything, and often... we don't see or do everything that we want to, and I always used to leave feeling exhausted... and a little guilty. One of my major items on My List of Ultimate Adventures (P.S. Do you have one of these? If not, you probably should!) is to spend more time with my family and friends and not feel rushed, tired or guilty at the end. When we feel rushed, we're more likely not to enjoy the experience fully.

For the longest time, I couldn't seem to make enough time for the visits. I was on everyone else's schedule - my boss's, my company's, my family's, my friends'... my Ego's. I had my priorities way out of whack... and I felt it everywhere. I was stressed, sad, guilty, lonely, resentful way more than I cared to admit.

Then my own Success Coach gave me a wake up call. "What's stopping you from spending time with the people that you love, from honoring your highest priority or deepest desire?" This was one of those GET OUT OF YOUR OWN WAY moments that was the definition of enlightening. 

God, how I needed that reality check. When we don't spend time doing things that make us happy (Hello! Traveling! Reading! Watching Bones!), being with people we love, or owning our thoughts AND actions, we're left totally to the wolf. And I mean the big, bad one that lives inside you that feeds on worry, negativity, anxiety, doubt and fear. That wolf doesn't need to eat you alive, but he/she would flipping love to. I'd been a voluntary meal for that wolf for a long time when I finally got my arse in gear and took myself off the table. 

Fast forward a year, and here we are. We are only in week 2 of our 6-week stay in Chicago, and all I can say is that we've been Busy! I mean, like more busy than just "I have a toddler: I'm always busy!" But, a GOOD kind of busy for once! And it's all about prioritizing and making your desires happen, and then owning Time and your Thoughts. My two Big T's that my clients learn about in Success Coaching. We're visiting friends, going to the lake for about a week, enjoying the city, going for walks every day, eating well, and enjoying our time here. 

You have the ability to prioritize and then work toward making this ownership of time happen. You can plan the trips you want to plan, spend time with the people you want to see, do the things you want to do with your Time. We are given opportunities to take action, to make our deepest dreams and desires come to fruition every day. We just need to take action on them. I know that sounds like some fluffy B.S. I used to feel that way, too. But once you hit bottom, and you realize you have to be willing to accept help in the form of a Mentor/Coach and new way of thinking and then you start practicing it, you realize you weren't living fully until you started it. Being in control of your life is a reality within anyone.

How are you working toward manifesting your desires today? If you're feeling stuck, overwhelmed, like you'll never get there... tell me. My major goal is to make one less person feel that way every day. 

"Every day expand in abundance, love and success as you inspire others to do the same." - The Big Leap -

With Love and A Step Forward,

 - Allison