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How I Overcame Spiritual Depression + Got My Groove Back By Swamping

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How I Overcame Spiritual Depression + Got My Groove Back By Swamping

I've had a raw, and real summer. 

any of you don't know this, but I actually went through a very deep depression for a little bit. It was hard, but it happened for a reason, as everything does. There were moments I woke up mourning... mourning my stepping out of being my true self, mourning how this was affecting my family, mourning how it affected my business.

And it was all brought on because I was DENYING who and what I really am.

Your purpose is to be YOU and be happy being you. 



When we disown our truest self, is when we experience the depths of depression, anxiety, grief, shame.

The world feels devoid of light and of life, because we aren't being real and accepting ourselves where we are.

It's like an act of violence on the soul, to disown our true selves, our true calling, our true passions and purpose. 

It HURT my heart, more than the time my boyfriend broke up with me while I was NAKED. Ouch.

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My Spiritual Depression + How I Transformed It

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My Spiritual Depression + How I Transformed It

Confession: I went through a deep, spiritual depression this summer.

It was awful. It hurt... And I was on my knees, praying to feel like my loving, happy self again many times.

I asked over and over for God to please help me see where this came from and how to get back to feeling peaceful, excited, lit up! Please help me let this Go!

This stemmed from one thing:

Denying my true, spiritual self.

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30 Things You Can Do to Bust-A-Rut Today

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30 Things You Can Do to Bust-A-Rut Today

I recently read Choose Yourself by James Altucher, and it is one of my all-time favorite books because of the message he sends and the way he delivers it. There is a portion of the book where he gets pretty raw and talks about getting off the floor, or being at bottom, and this is at the beginning of the book because it needs to be addressed immediately.

I'm going to be pretty honest with you: I HAVE BEEN THERE. 

Before I became the much more confident person I am today, I went through a pretty rough patch. We'll call it a major quarter-life crisis. I had been laid off from a job I loved (Thanks a lot, 2008 recession!), and I'd moved halfway across the country to a city where I knew no one except my boyfriend at the time. Now, while this ended up being a great move for me, it was initially insanely lonely. My boyfriend and I were Fire and Ice: sounds great and exciting in theory... but in reality, they just don't "mesh well". I had found a new job, but it was full of bullies and people with toxic energy, and I didn't enjoy the work. To top it off, I had body image issues up the wazoo that I thought I'd dealt with but that I realized were still lingering on. I was lonely... and I was devastatingly depressed and angry. All of the time.

So one day, I slumped to the floor in my bathroom (gross), and I didn't get up for about 72 hours. I didn't eat. I maybe had a glass of water, from a dingy glass that had been in the bathroom for a month. (Also gross.) I had let everyone tell me what I should do, and how I should do it, and who I was or was expected to be as a person for SO LONG that I sank under the weight of everyone's expectations. I didn't even know myself anymore, or what I even wanted for myself. It was like that part in Eat, Pray, Love where Elizabeth Gilbert says "I didn’t want to destroy anything or anybody. I just wanted to slip quietly out the back door, without causing any fuss or consequences, and then not stop running until I reached Greenland.” 

I literally wanted to move away where no one would know me and my story could start over. This was a pretty huge "woe is me" moment. It was also when I finally realized that I had to learn how to care for and heal myself.

I'm telling you this because you need to know that if this is where you are - at bottom, on the floor - I HAVE BEEN THERE. You are not alone. And there is an important message for you here...

YOU HAVE TO CHOOSE YOURSELF. 

I'm giving you the green light to be a little bit selfish (in a GOOD way)! You have to choose to move forward. Choose to get up. Choose to treat yourself AND everyone else around you like the amazing people you/they are. Choose to do one thing today that will get you out of your rut. Then tomorrow, do two things. Just do one thing at a time and the change will happen. But you have to choose to make healing yourself, being the BEST VERSION OF YOURSELF NON-NEGOTIABLE, because you are really, truly the only one that can help yourself. And in being the best version of yourself, that is when you'll really impact other people in an amazing, inspiring way just by being you. 

If this is where you are right now, I'm giving you my personal list (for FREE!) of the top 30 Things I Did (and that YOU can do) to Break Out of Your Rut. I hope this list of ideas helps you as much as it helped me. Make doing that one thing per day non-negotiable, make healing and growing non-negotiable. 

P.S. - I have something new coming out within the next month!

It's an awesome NEW PROGRAM that I'm so excited to launch. It is going to be an awesome opportunity to experience some major self-transformation and bust out of your career rut. So stay tuned for more news on it soon!

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